Reassure me it gets easier

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DD is 2 and a half, ds is 6weeks. I am soo tired. Lost the plot today. Fell asleep while dd was watching beebies after lunch (unintentionally) woke to find living room covered in crumbs, tidied then we made cakes, I turned into shouty mum, then during another bout of beebies her nappy leaked onto the sofa - hours of getting the dam thing clean and dry tomorrow - and I flipped between shouty mum and teary mum until dh got home. DH has taken over but is not exactly mr patience and I'm getting (silently) annoyed that he isn't doing things as I would like and irritated that he is tired when I'm the one up all bloody night. Feel like I'm hanging on to sanity by a thread. I want to run away. I want to make everything nice for everyone but house is a tip, I'm a pita, have no energy, so tired.

Just off out but didn't want to read and run. Yes, of course it will get easier. I was you this time last summer and well remember when an unexpected leaky nappy/slipped drink/towels left in puddles on the bathroom floor felt so dreadful as it was ANOTHER bit of bloody work for me to do. Don't worry about making the house nice for everyone - your priority is yourself. Although it's easy to not think about your needs, you're actually the most important person in all of this.
It was probably your afternoon snooze that threw your mood completely today. Things will be better tomorrow.
Take care.

Oh it SO gets easier. This is the hardest time of your life!

Of course it gets easier six weeks and two years, if you got out of bed today you are a superwoman. Just noticed you made cakes WOW

I didn't eat enough today /i think. I just feel like utter crap. Sleep just gets so precious - if I manage a decent amout tonight, tomorrow will be better. What i'd do for 48 hours off - would just be bliss.

It really will get better before you know it. Look at the post on here called '2 month old and 2 year old' (or something similar) the mum is going through the same kind of thing as you.

You made cakes??? That is brilliant, you should be really pleased at how well you've done.

I did the same when my ds2 was little, I fell asleep and was half aware that ds1 (aged 20 months) was pulling the tissues out of the box and shredding them up all over the living room floor but I was so tired I let him carry on. When I finally opened my eyes my living room looked like a snow scene!!! I was so mad but at myself cos I know he was doing it but couldn't be arsed to open my eyes and atop him.

Don't worry too much about your dd watching tv, it's early days and when you're in more of a routine with the baby you'll be able to do more with her.

The main things I'd advise is to forget housework, if you're knackered then go to bed as soon as possible after the children are settled. Are you breastfeeding? Can you express so dh could do last feed or a night feed? Also try and get out, either to a friend's or is there a play group near you where someone would either hold the baby or play with your dd so she is getting some fun too.

Take care, you are doing a great job. It's the tiredness, it distorts things but really you are doing great

x

Thank you
Am off to bed now. Just put dd down 'I don't love you when you shout at me' and 'Are you tired because I went in the kitchen?' (we had a disagreement when she kept trying to go in and open the cupboards)
We agreed that I would try to shout less and she would try to do what she was told, but no mummy is tired because of ds needing to feed at night, not because of her.
Anyway, tomorrow is another day