I need to get my mummy mojo back

[tiredandoverwhelmed]

I'm just so tired and the kids are grating on me at the moment. They both go to nursery 3 mornings a week (the older one is in for 2 and a half days) so I can work from home, and when they come back I just can't be bothered.

I try to be all bright and do exciting things, but I end up putting cbeebies on and giving the baby a boob and slobbing out. We haven't left the house except to go to nursery for days, maybe even weeks.

I have had PND before, it doesn't feel like that, I think I just need to be reinspired. It just seems like housework just gets messed up, they don't care if the food is lovingly handmade or junk, I spend all day cleaning and it is still a mess by the time DH gets back, the older one still has a dummy and nappies and wants carrying all the time, the baby just wants feeding constantly, and...I just want to have some kind of goal or...I dunno.

I'm just overwhelemed I think. So tired but I can't sleep when I do go to bed. DH is no good atm, he is giving up smoking and is hell to live with. i feel like some kind of drudge, carrying children everywhere, making food for it to get chucked on the floor where I have to clean it or smeared on clothes that I have to wash and dry and put away, I work all day and nothing to show for it.

It is creeping into my job now as well- my job is one where you need to have drive and enthusiasm, and it's just not there.

I would normally tell my mental health worker, but she is on holiday, and feeling "meh" isn't worth ringing the crisis number, or explaining my entire back story to a cover person.

Not sure what I want. I try drinking coffee and it just makes me jumpy and meh, i try drinking beer, but I just get tired and meh. Can't exercise due to health issues that are taking ages to get sorted out.

i tried telling a HV at a drop in that I'm struggling with the older ones potty training, she said she would ask a nursery nurse to ring, but nothing. i can't just ring a HV, they are always out and the man on the end is never sure when they will be back. The baby is doing my head in with feeding, but i know I'll just get told to stop if I even ever got hold of the HV.

Shake me up!

Any suggestions before I namechange back?

Is there some magic remedy or am I destined to just slog along forever? The house is a bloody tip and I'm so tired I could cry.

You sound worn out. How old are your dc's?

I just started a thread like this! So I will sympathise with you, pass you chocolate and wait for pearls of wisdom to come forth!

Accupuncture has worked wonders for me. I really do feel like me again, although it took my friend 1 year to persuade me to go, now the accupunturist is telling me I don't need to go so often but I am scared of feeling flat, epmty and worn out again (just as you describe) so I don't listen!!
Beleive me I am scetical about anything alternative but accupuncture has literally changed my life

It's funny how circular things are, isnt it - slobbing around (nowt wrong with it..) breeds more slobbing around. Energy breeds energy,

I would try and make yourself get out of the house ... but then I know that getting out makes me feel better. Could you set yourself something to do tomorrow/Friday (are your kids still at nursery, or are you all on hols?), then three things to do next week - even if you just get to the park/library/feed the ducks/whatever.

Plus it means the kids are out of the house so there's less tidying (always my goal in life )

It apparently does get so much easier once the youngest is 18 months or so - I'm still to reach that point! I can really identify with what you are saying. I have a 2.5yo and a 14mo and some days we go no-where and they are awful, I lose all motivation, everything becomes overwhelming etc. The days I actually get my arse in gear in the morning and get us out for a bit are MUCH better - and we enjoy it What I found really helped was when I started running. Is there any form of exercise you could do where u get a bit of u time? Swimming/yoga/pilates etc? I find that if I get just a little break from the dc's I feel lots better. As for the housework it's neverending here too. I'm actually about to go on a massive de-clutter frenzy, and then going to invest in a big wicker basket for each room, to chuck everything in at the end of the day. Could you afford to hire a cleaner for a couple of hrs a wk?

Doing Flylady really helped me recently when I was like this. I've passed it on to a few of my equally sceptical friends and they have found the same

If you can get past the whole 'motviational thing' about it - which took me a couple of goes it really does work.