I am upset with myself for passing out

[YunoYurbubson]

Ds had stitches in his chin yesterday. It was all very gory. The nurse was holding his head. The Doctor was sewing him up. I was holding his legs, stopping his hands from grabbing the needle, and generally being calm and soothing and telling him it was okay, and he could have milk in a minute.

The next thing I know, I am blinking my eyes open surrounded by medical staff, no idea where I was, who they were, what I was doing. I thought I must have been in an explosion or a car crash or something.

As soon as they had me up and in a chair they went back to sewing ds up and I sat shaking and trying not to be sick, making pathetic attempts to comfort a screaming ds from across the room.

I am so upset with myself. My poor baby needed me and I passed out cold on the floor. I don't even know why I did it. What is the purpose of fainting? How fucking rubbish of me not to be there for him when he was scared and in pain.

I have a hell of a lump on my head and have lost some hearing in one ear from where I landed. Am still on painkillers and have a continual headache. He is absolutely fine and racing around with a bandaged chin as though nothing has happened.

oh poor you, don't be hard on yourself, it's hardly something you can control is it?

My friend was in a labour and about to deliver her baby when her DH passed out cold, landed on the radiator, burnt his neck so badly that he spent the evening in A&E. He has massive scar to this day.

DS is ok, you'll be ok later, be kind to yourself.

Thank you Kbear.

Your poor friend. I bet he felt such an arse. I know I do.

I don't know how long I was out for. Seconds or minutes. I do know the doctor had trouble getting the last stitch done because of my antics and had to steri-strip it closed.

I feel for you. I know the feeling. Last year my boy was getting stitches in a cut in his hand (four stitches). I was fine, had rinsed his hand, taken him to hospital, sat with him whilst it was being stitched, and then just as they were finishing up I came over all hot and cold and shivery. Had to get up and go get a drink of chilled water and do some deep breathing to stop myself from fainting. I didn't faint, but I was very close.

Not sure why it happens. Doesnt do much for survival does it, if we drop on the spot in the face of bother.

Hope your head feels better soon.

No, it doesn't do much for our survival. I really struggle to see the point. How is lying unconcious on the floor going to improve a threatening situation? If that doctor had been a hungry bear I would have woken up mauled to death and childless.

Poor you. Don't be hard on yourself.

When had you last eaten/ Or had something to drink? Are you breastfeeding - in which case it is easier to become dehydrated.

And of course it's so hot and smelly in hospitals.

I bet in all your concern to look after your child, you had not looked after yourself, and that added to the gore and stress of the situation, it's not surprising you fainted.

Hopefully you won't come across too many hungry bears! I really can sympathise as I felt the same when my ds, aged 2, needed stitches in a french hospital after falling down an escalator which was another guilt trip for me! Ds is now 8 and extremely proud of having fallen down an escalator and loves his Harry Potter scar and doesn't remember my wobble.

If that doctor had been a hungry bear I would have woken up mauled to death and childless.

I'm sorry, but this made me laugh.

Are you feeling better today? Really, mothers have enough to feel guilty about without adding 'involuntary unconsciousness' to the list.

Fortunately most PCTs have policies against employing hungry bears...

Funny isn't it, that I am not remonstrating with myself for allowing my 2yo to face-plant off a dining room chair onto a tile floor? But the 'involuntary unconciousness' is bothering me!

Anyway, Ds is doing well. My head is still a bit of a funny shape but I'm on the mend too.