The return of PND

[Imsadagain]

Ok. Firstly I'm not sure if PND can return. But i'm pretty sure it has :(
I was diagnosed when my DS was around 2months. Was given Fluoxetine to take. I took it for around 2months, then stopped because I was feeling better. Now my DS is 10 months. He's amazing. But i cannot cope anymore. I cry all the time, worry that i'm not doing the right thing, i'm exhausted all the time despite the fact he sleeps from 7pm -8am. But the worse thing is- I'm paranoid that everyone around me is going to die. It's always in my mind. I'm having nightmares about it.
Everything came to a head tonight when I was trying to get DS ready 4 bed. My DH came home from work and i was hysterical. He is so understanding about it all-couldn't ask for any better, But thinks I should go back to the doctors on Monday.
I really don't want to feel this way anymore. I want to be happy and enjoy my baby. I don't know what I want from writing this.Maybe for an outsider to say that this isnt normal behaviour. Or to tell me to snap out of it coz my DS is amazing.
Rant Over.

thank you for replying. x

zapostrophe just thought i'd let you know that I went back to the doctors and they put me back on tablets. Thank you for being the only one who replied.much appreciated. I hope to be smiling soon! x

i'm sure youwill be. i have had depression before and became convinced i was going to die, so i know how you feel. it's awful - you know you are being utterly ridiculous, but you just can't help it, remember the pills usually take up to 6 weeks to take effect. hope you feel better soon - at least you are taking control and doing something proactive!