I'm sitting here wondering where did it all go wrong? What can I do differently to change? Nine years ago I was really excited about becoming a mum, and now, I just can't wait until school start again, and I can hide behind being a school run mum again. My nine year old boy is rude, cheeky, agressive to his younger sister, and to be honest, I think may be a bully at school. I feel like I've totally failed him, his sister and to be truthful, myself and my husband.
It has gotten so bad, I have found a summer day centre and booked the two of them in there for 2 days next week. When they are apart, they are great, both funny, loving and we have fun together. But the minute they are together, I just seem to be always refereeing, telling them off.
A few years agao I went to see the doctor and was given antidepressents, and they worked, so I was taken off them. 18months ago, I felt I was slipping out of control again, and returned to be told, well, they should have sorted you out last time, you probably need to see a psychologist, but here, take the minimum dose, and come back in a month. I didn't feel I could go back as she didn't believe me, so I just left it. Now I feel angry most of the time, unable to make decisions and basically like I am going around in circles.
I know you can't do anything, but it has helped just sharing how I feel.