Can anyone recommend a good counsellor in London for low self-esteem? Fed up with feeling like this...

[BecauseImALondoner]

I?ve have had feelings of low self worth all my life, and I think now I?ve reached the grand old age of 38 it?s time to finally do something about it. I?m utterly sick of being like this. I am finding that having small children is increasingly bringing me into contact with new people and new situations, and it?s just making things worse. The interaction with my NCT group alone has made me feel the lowest I?ve done for years. I?m convinced they all think I?m worthless and boring and they all dislike me.

Soon my eldest will be starting pre-school and then school, and I am dreading the whole ?school gates? politics thing. Can anyone help? I really want to speak to someone and get over this. Lately I can?t even look at my own face in the mirror without hating it. Which is so sad

Sending you a big hug telepathically and hoping you are feeling a bit better this evening. I cannot recommend anyone in london but would suggest seeing your GP as they should have access to useful info and contacts for you.
i feel really sad reading your message as i am sure you are a lovely person who lots of other mums would love to get to know, and that they certainly would not think you were worthless and boring, most of them are probably worried about what you thought of them, i think people probably analyse you far less than you think.
it sounds to me like you are quite depressed and have got into in a downward spiral of negative thoughts which just duplicate themselves and are self-fulfilling - but there are plenty of ways out, it think cognitive behavioural therapy would really suit you. try to step back and imagine the advie you would give to yourself if you were a kindly observer - be kind to yourself- you deserve it.
i am certainly no expert but do feel you must talk to your family / friends about this - do you have a support network?
kind regards x x

Thank you kind stinkypants (feels a bit odd writing that ) Your message has made me well up. I think you are right, and that I overanalyse and am too hard on myself. I sometimes think that I would like to have me as a friend if I were another mum. Sigh. I think CBT is a good idea and I'm going to look into it. Maybe will approach GP as well. I have a small baby and there might well be a bit of PND going on too. You sound really nice and I'm sure you are a lovely friend. Yes I do have a support network. I am lucky enough to have a lovely family, and also I have some lovely old friends too. It's mostly just with new people that I have problems. Though I do get paranoid about my old friends too

i'm really pleased to hear you sounding more postive and i am SURE you make a great friend! Definitely worth following up the possible PND, it's totally understandable with all those hormones everywhere and the stress of the demands on you mentally and physically.
oh i hope you remember what you said on here when you feel low, and don't let those feelings hold you back.
sorry not logged back on sooner, i'm a bit erratic on this website (-: