Not sure if anyone can help but feel need to get all this off my chest. Here's my situation - I am 42 and have 2 DCs 5 & 8 (so in full time education). Have worked part time as school librarian for nearly 3 1/2 years. before that was in marketing working 3 full days week but wanted to reduce my hours to fit in with children (and company wanted to me to increase to 4 days week!). School library job was first one I applied for and I got it and although didn't have a clue what was letting myself in for felt I had to go for it. Has been a bit of a steep learning curve having never worked in a school before but really good hours so can drop off and collect Dcs etc. However it is really not for me - not enough contact with other adults and not busy enough - unfortunately don't want to be teaching assistant either so school options aren't that great.
Have applied for a few jobs lately - last one in marketing/sales which sounded up my street but they got 75 applicants! Not really sure what I want to do anymore (not that I ever did really know!) but wouldn't mind getting back to marketing type stuff but of course part-time jobs like that are like goldust! Trouble is I worry that the longer I stay in my current job the more likely that I will be just seen as school librarian type. feedback from the marketing job application said that although my experience was good it was a few years ago. Don't know how to get out of this rut. The job isn't so bad that I am just going to give it up - besides we need the money although not well paid - better than not having a job at all. Keep looking for local jobs on all the websites including local councils etc and got an appolication in at the moment but as the I/V is on MOnday and I haven't heard yet I don't think going to get an interview.
I can see my working life slipping away from me and I'm really bored! Still want to do something that would fit in with kids although am prepared to give up the term time only for the right job (but still needs to be part-time). I was thinking perhaps I could re-train for something but don't know what and mostly these courses cost money and wouldn't necess fit in with current job and children etc.
Just feel a bit lost and sorry for rambling - any words of wisdom would be very appreciated. I do realise that i am lucky to have a job and one that is part-time and TTO but sometimes that just isn't enough - feel my brain is rotting!
TIA