Hi everyone ❤️ - hope you had a lovely Christmas & New Years (if you celebrate) & hope you’re well.
I am feeling a little lost & confused.
I am 29 this year, I have a mortgage with my partner of just over 3 years & a puppy which we adore.
we lost twins unexpectedly last year, which was a shock to find out I was pregnant and also a shock to find out I was miscarrying at 3 months.
I have a degree in which I worked really hard for which got me my dream job. Unfortunately, I ended up leaving because I ironically hated in the end. Which lead me to a job I never really wanted but needed and have been there ever since. Roughly 6 years.
I don’t have a career I like or a family, which I thought I’d have by now at 29. I’m lost, and not sure what to do. Should I continue making my life better and get a better job? Or do I try for a family and focus on the career part later in life? But, will later in life be harder and give me financial stress. I feel a little let down by myself wasting my 20s on a career I never continued and being stuck in a job I dislike and now unsure if it’s the right time to have a baby or am I just being selfish by bringing a baby in to the world with a mum that can’t be sure if she can always provide (including my partner, he works so hard! But, I’m a worker and will always want to work/have a career for my sanity and independence lol)
can anyone give advice? Or been in this situation…guess I’m feeling a little low on confidence and deflated with the constant worry. And because of that, I’ve not got the baby or sorted my career.
Thanks for reading if you got this far…it’s a long read ❤️