Burn out

[Sistall]

Does anyone else just feel absolutely spent. Like I don't have anything left?

I'm a single parent of 2 primary kids, thier dad has supervised visits once a month for 3 hrs and there's a no contact order so now everything is calm/safe/ consistent.

He doesn't pay maintenance but I earn enough to be just over the threshold for benifets so we do ok. I do alot of work at home in the evenings so I can take kids to clubs n pick them up from school once a week. We have a simple life.

I don't however have any family support, and as a side effect of my 10 years with the kids dad, I don't really have many friends either. I am the friend who will always be there for everyone, and iv come to realise I can't actually call anyone in my hr of need. I can't have bad day, be ill or sad or anything. When I get so ill i end up in hospital, they call social services for my kids.. and I am imun-compromised going through a divorce, solo parenting and working 60 hr weeks. The dr says I should rest more.

I dont remember the last time I laughed or even felt happiness and I cannot remember the last time I was prioritised by anyone else or was me.

I have no idea where I'm going with this, maybe just ofloading.

Well done on being such a good solo parent! I am so impressed. I also feel so sad for you, trying to manage on your own. I can also see how easy it is to find ourselves in this situation. Now you need to find joy in your life, and help when you need it. Finding friends is something that I struggled with in the past. Work and family soaked up all my leisure time, and I am too much of an introvert to make friends easily. Eventually for me it was a breast cancer diagnosis that was the bridge to deeper, more meaningful connections and friendships. Can you find a support group of some kind? Is there a women's centre near you? Through those channels you should find the kind of support you need. For yourself, for having fun, look at getting a baby sitter for x hours on a Saturday or Sunday, to do something that you love that involves other people. A craft or sport? Believe me, there will be people out there that would love to be your friend :-)