My situation is both Ugly and very precarious.This is year 8 and I can not and will not live this quality of life any longer. The proverbial gloves are off as I have been in court too many times to count. I am and have been without representation the entire time while he has spent over 50k trying to make me look incompetant. Never lost custody even once however my now 8 year old I'm watching come apart before my eyes. I fear for his future. I fear for mine as the courts have done nothing but favor his father. Im not a drunk im not an addict I don't hit all I do is sacrifice hurting my self in most instances just so my lil boy doesn't go without. My husband and I created a strong family structure and most of all we created nothing but a strong loving family environment. I have no fight left. I'm loosing my buisiness my relashionship with everyone but mostly my mind . I strive to do everything right. I'm at this point doing what's right as a responsible mother who has had enough and wiping my bottom with the court order n going rogue. Probably gona pay but at least I'll pay knowing I did what I did and i violated the order with the intention of keeping my baby safe. Could use some support however. I'm a wreck. Im sad all the time and starting to push everyone away n isolate. I have less than a zero quality of life because all I'm doing is deflecting. I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting for my reputation. Its consumed my spirit to the point that I don't reorganize myself or my face when I do smile which is never. My child has begun stealing lying and he's uncontrollable. But very predictable. It hurts n im gona get him better without his father then I'll commence the order but he's fixed on trying to take him from me when all he does every other weekend after piking him up is dump him off at his mothers where my other son was abused and swept under the carpet by the DA. Then brings him home and hours after he starts acting out. I have the unfortu ate court order for visitation woth hin not his family therefore he goes nowhere with him.