I don’t know why am writing on hear but hey first time for everything.
3 weeks ago tomorrow my life fell apart I got a phone call of a girl claiming my long term partner 23 years had got her pregnant and they had been having a 8 month affair going on week long breaks away. I feel so stupid how did I not know I trusted him completely and never thought he would do that to me I was in total shock I asked him was it true he admitted it but said it was the worst mistake of his life but has not been very remorseful I logged in to his iCloud his messages were gone but I can see he still in contact with her and she sent me a message saying she was half way through the pregnancy he was telling me she was getting a abortion.
I feel so broken he treated me like dirt for all them months as well and for most of the years so why am I so sad and crying all the time I am 45 now so not getting any younger while he sails of in to the sunset with his 30 year old affair partner and having a child.
he phones me up still but I have blocked all contact it is to hurtful I really don’t know what to do I was not financially reliant on him so that a bonus I just don’t know what to do with my time as I spent every day with him why are men so evil and cruel