Hi guys, posting because I feel a bit silly about what had happened…what would you have done?
So, not gonna go into detail but my husband and I have been really struggling financially for the past couple of months…we know that it’s only for the time being but it’s still been pretty challenging and some weeks we do struggle to afford enough food to last us until the end of the month 🥲 but like I said, I know it’s only temporary and there’s better coming. However, I do rely on my family from time to time and I’ve found myself relying on them a little more than usual during these tough times for obvious reasons…my family are very supportive and I’ve not had a reason to feel uncomfortable about asking them for help. I do sometimes feel a bit embarrassed to have to ask because maybe there is a little bit of pride deep down but overall it’s usually fine.
However, recently we’d run out of some essential items and I felt too embarrassed to ask for help but I swallowed my pride and asked my mum to buy milk for my young child. She gave me her debit card and I went into the shop with the sole intention of buying milk and nothing else. However, whilst I was there we had a short phone conversation and she said I could add a few other bits and bobs (if I didn’t have any at home) and of course I was pleased and shopped for other items, yet I didn’t realise that the amount would go up to £49 at the checkout.
when I got back to the car my mum saw the amount of items and didn’t seem too pleased and I received a bit of a lecture (not a major one) but I apologised and let her know that I didn’t intend to buy that much and perhaps got a bit carried away. I also felt motivated because the fridge was quite empty at home🙊
when we got back to our house she made a few more comments here and there and for some reason I went to the kitchen and started to cry. I don’t know why I cried but I feel like it wasn’t really about her comments but maybe I’d been suppressing so many emotions and had perhaps not processed how our financial struggles were truly affecting me. She got annoyed that I was crying and thought it was because of her comments 😂 I mean, I get it, I’m fine with being reprimanded but the crying outburst did make me think a little bit🤔 In hindsight I felt quite silly for crying as a grown woman but I guess sometimes we got to let it out…AIBU for crying?