Advice needed

[alexis97]

Hi Mumsnet, I'm hoping you can give me a bit of advice on this situation.

Myself and my husband had a very rough patch last year, I know many of you may have followed previous posts. My husband started a new role, became very distant, didn't treat me great and showed his true colours of having a natural born immaturity. He followed, liked half naked photos of his coworkers on social media, hid his phone and really didn't care about how I felt, he really did treat me like a total stranger and really disrespected me in so many ways. He has a bipolar diagnosis so can be quite impulsive and also stopped taking meds during this time. We decided to work on things, he's started his medication again and we had our newborn 5 weeks ago, however I can't stop feeling resentment for this new job he has, I feel like if he didn't leave his previous job we wouldn't be in this position, I've been very distant with him, crying a lot when we discuss his work, arguing all the time because I can't bare it. I can't seem to just get over the way I was treated when I was pregnant, feeling unattractive while he explored these other women he worked with on social media. It was my last baby and I feel like the experience was ruined for me because of his immaturity. I don't trust him right now and I feel like I'm emotionally withdrawing from our marriage. I've told him and he's willing to do whatever it takes but I can barely look him in the eye. What do we do? We have 2 lovely children. I feel guilty for feeling the way I do.