Hello so I've name changed for this as a little embarresed.
So my partner and I have two sons.
When we had our first He joined a new job and started doing cocaine with his Co-workers and hiding this from me. I only found out when I realised the money going missing, the calls to prostitutes on his phone etc it was a very tough for me so he decided to leave this job and get a new one and we had our next ds after this, he has always been a very hands on loving dad apart from the drugs.
During lockdown he started using again and it was a really tough time for me as he started going missing , spending alot of money and I never knew what to expect him to come home like. Anyway I ended up splitting up with him as it was not fair on the kids.
Fast forward to now he's been clear for a whole year and we have decided to get back together, has has a new job that he is excelling at and is being great at home with the kids - I really thought I would be so happy. I have never ussually been a Clingy partner but I find myself calling him and texting him alot on the day because I feel like I need to keep a tab on him incase he slips up and takes cocaine again and ruins everything. I spend every day full of nerves till the minute he gets home (I work from home) I don't really know what I want from this post just hoping this will get better for me and wandering if anyone else has been through the same? Thank you x