Handhold please, huge regret moving

[OnTheGoAlways]

I am on my own with 2 sons and a dog. I private rented our semi detached house for over 8 years, then LL mentioned moving, although moved the goalposts a few times. My grandmother got sick, and could not go back to her flat in Edinburgh, she has offered to rent me the flat for less than market rate, and gift me £30k upon its sale if I am resident.

I absolutely adore the countryside and walking, I look forward to my lunch time dog walks every day. DS1 HS he got the school bus to and DS2 PS We lived right next to. But I panicked and took the flat.

I have moved to Edinburgh this weekend. I haven't slept properly in weeks, I haven't been able to stop crying about deciding to move and what I'm putting my children and dog through, neither of them wanted to move. They are staying at current schools and I have to commute 25 mins each way 4 times a day as I WFH. I feel awful, I can't even describe it, I feel itchy with regret, I feel full of sadness. I want my house back, I want to be a better parent, I want to get more involved with the community this time.

Please, if anyone has been through similar or understands please let me know.

I know how you feel
it sounds like you moved for financial reasons an fear of instability?

how are your DC doing? Is it realistic to move back or too much disruption?
but the money might mean a lot and it's done now.

I am sympathetic. I just moved and I have a deep sadness. I compromised too much, I think.

You posted about this before when it was first offered as a possibility. Presumably you have thought carefully about it? It's going to take time to adjust, try to take things slowly. It sounds like you can't go back to your old house if your LL has sold.
I don't want to sound heartless but try to stay positive.
We have made big moves a few times in our lives for job related reasons, it hasn't always been easy and it can take a long time to feel that the new place is 'home'.

Totally sympathise! I also moved house a couple of years ago from a town in the South to Yorkshire! I really regret it now, and wish I could move back. I moved to a cheaper property to save money after losing my job, and to try to connect with some long-lost relatives up here. But the house has needed work, and my relatives don't seem interested in getting in touch. Even my poor little cat didn't like the new house, and died shortly after moving. I feel so foolish that I didn't anticipate the hardship of leaving behind my good friends & life I had. To anyone thinking of relocating, please think very carefully before you do.