Can anyone help me decipher the nightmare I had last night.........

[nappynoonoo]

So I am driving on a main road past my nana's house, I get to the round a bout at the end of the road and drive the wrong way round the round a bout.
On the pavement (around the round a bout) outside the very small housing estate that my nana lives on I see an abouriginal (SP?) man (You know from the tribes in Australia) he was looking at me and his mouth and eyes were on fire.

I woke up with a start and couldn't sleep well after that as I kept having nightmares all night, but can really only remember this one.

I don't know what to make of this, I hope someone can maybe shed some light on this for me.

Oh and by the way IRL I don't drive!!!!

a couple of things... do you live/want to live in australia? is your nana dead?

No nana is alive and well and nope I don't want to live in Australia, it's too hot for me!!

okay well i had to check this onev in my book cause i havent come across an aboriganal before. To see an Aborigine in your dream, represents both your untamed, natural self and your innocent side. You need to be more in touch with your natural intuition and forces. It also suggests that you are being overindulgent or overly emotional. You may be harming yourself and jeopardizing your well-being due to your unrestraint.

Thanks liesel, I will have to read that a few more times to get my head around it and figure out what I am doing wrong in my waking hours.

TBH now I think about it, I have been over indulging in some of the food that I didn't eat while I was PG, you know blue cheese, liver, cured meats, fired eggs with lovely runny yolks. And despite breastfeeding and exercising I have managed to put 2lb on, even though I actually lost loads of weight while I was PG.

I've also had a couple of glasses of wine this week, and felt really guilty as I am BFing. I know it's ok to have a little bit of alcohol occasionally but I still felt guilty!!!!

I wonder if this could be it, or do you think it could run a bit deeper than food Liesel??

Do you spend to make yourself feel better?

Did you know that dreams are very important to aboriginals? Their myths, spirituality, etc are all about dreaming.

In my dreams tonight, I am going to be pursued by floating letters spelling out

"a independant"

And I am going to grind my teeth all night and wake up stressed in the morning

By the way, on the topic of Aboriginal men ...

Well I have just had the most horrendous nightmare, so bad that I don't want to go back to sleep so I have come on here to keep myself awake. How ironic seen as DD is fast asleep.

I have had 3 nights in a row now with bad nightmares, they are getting more frequent and more horrible and scary by the day.

I have always had very very life like dreams, which I have always been able to remember all or pat of. More dreams than nightmares. I had them every night, until I was about 12 weeks pg when I cant remember any more. Anyway the dreams/nightmares have only just started up again and DD is 12 weeks old.

The nightmare I had starts of unusual but not scary, although in the nightmare I have a feeling it is gonna get scary IYSWIM.

This is my nightmare;

I am in a big reservoir it is sunny, there are lots of people about swimming, boating, playing water sports. I can see dogs and children on the banks playing and people biking around the reservoir. (On Sunday we drove past a massive reservoir we have locally, so I wonder if that is anything to do with it)

The people on bikes start racing, bu racing over the water and splashing water everywhere, they do no sink.

I am then on one of the banks with a young girl with me, she seems like a really nice little girl of about 7 or 8 years old.
The people racing on bikes keep riding into us and hurting the backs of our legs one of them is DH, but I don't feel love for him just jelousy (SP?) and hatred

We edge closer to what seems to be a house with long corridoors, this house reminds me of the one my nana and grandad use to live in and I was so scared of it. Alot of my nightmares happen here. (god I am getting goose pimples now just trying to recount it)

Me and this young girl are backing away from these bikers (and DH) we back into a long corridoor of the house, but we cant move any further as there are lots of coats and clothes hung up along the corridoor.

We try to push through but cant get through, I suddenly have one of my kitchen knives and start hacking away at the clothes and coats. They wont budge so me and this young girl pull the down, they all come crashing down to the floor, we run through to get away from the bikers.

When we get back there, I still feel like we are in my nana and grandads house but it feels like a hidden set of rooms, but it feels familier (SP?) to me. There is a bathroom, living room and bedroom with a long corridoor connecting them all.

This young girl turns in to an old friend of mine who I haven't seen in ages and I still feel nice vibes from her. She leaves I feel so alone and sad and so so very scared now that she has gone.

I am stood at one end of this long corridoor and I see a shaddow at the other end, I look down and look up again and I see it again.
I look down and then I look up and see a smartly dressed man in a suit and bowler hat I feel that he is the grim reaper but he doesn't look like the grim reaper.

Again I look down then I look up and he is still there, he talks to me, I dont hear the words come out his mouth but I hear them in my head IYSWIM, he says 'you must go now nappy', he actually said my name. I scream and scream at him to go away, I dont hear me scream out loud but in my head. He just stands there with a small smile on his face. He actually seemed kinda nice. It's like I knew he was the grim reaper but he was nice!!!!

I them float out of my body and look down I am sobbing hard I claw my way back into my body I am shouting for my grandad to come and help me, all I can think about is my DD and that I'm never going to see her again.

The I wake up!!!!

If you have got to the end of this thank you so much, if anyone has the time to reply thank you.

I'm so scared I'm crying

I've just read that back, I'm fucked up aren't I

That's really vivid! chilling.

Very difficult to interpret without knowing anything about someone.
I know nothing on dreams. A wild guess:
Is a feeling of guilt about something bugging you?

(Food/wine would be my guess - manifestation in your dream : general guilt related to aboriginal issue - jealousy/hate towards DH - your long lost friend)

This is probably really stupid.
Accept my apologies if I'm out of line.

slim22, no apologies needed, I'm looking for any kind of explanation here. I honestly dont know where it all comes from. I'm so tired now and my head feels a jumbled up after that nightmare!!

Thanks for replying

Did you know about the Australian apology to the Aborigine's before you had this dream? It sounds like an allegory of the apology (or of the need for the apology).

You, a European (?) are driving illegally into a territory that an earlier European generation (your Nan) has colonised, leaving an Aborigine 'on the pavement', i.e. homeless and carless (disempowered).

He is so angry and accusing that his eyes and mouth are in flames as he looks at you.

It is particularly eerie given the significance of dreams for Aborigines.

Threadworm, No I didn't know about the apology from the Australians to the Aborigines. I have never even been to Australia!!

God it is so weird how the mind works, so by the sounds of it (I may be reading this wrong) but I am feeling guilty of something??

I'm so tired and I feel so messed up at the minute what with having these horrible nightmares/dreams.

Liesel, I've just seen your other post. I wish I could spend and be a little bit extravagant sometimes but we don't have much spare money and I refuse to have credit card(s) etc.

That odd, I just assumed you knew about the apology.

Nope never heard of it!!

I'm assuming that the Australians apologized to the Aborigines for colonizing their county.
Is that it????

I'm so sorry that you're experiencing this, your nightmares sound truly horrific. If it's any consolation, I sometimes have nightmares for a period of time and then they stop.

The aborigine nightmare: the only thing that struck me here was that you said his eyes and mouth were on fire and that Australia is too hot for you. But now I'm thinking about it, I wonder what the significance of the eyes and mouth are, it's where we communicate from...thinking on to the dream about your dh running into your legs, are you and dh having troubles? are you communicating well? It's almost as though he's 'knocked your legs from under you'?

Is the fact that on both occasions your grandparents feature? Is something making you want to regress? Do you feel as though you need to be looked after?

Is your dd a baby? Is she your only one?

If so, I wonder if this just stems from the sudden realisation of having someone new to care for and not being entirely sure of what to do,

When I read about the bikers, I thought that maybe you felt threatened by something and the fact that you were trying to protect the girl, who could represent your dd, it all ties in with the role of a mother, protective. Even down to the 'grim reaper' image (which sounds truly awful) trying to take you -and telling you to go- away from your child (a huge worry for every parent, dying while their child is young) I wonder if the image of the man in the bowler hat means anything to you, what job do you think he does? do you think he's intimidating? does this have any relevance to you now?

A nightmare, or dream, doesn't have to mean anything, experts on this subject will tell you that, although no-one truly knows why we dream, a theory is that it's just our brains way of 'filtering out' all of the crap we experience during the day....hope you have a better night tonight

was the little girl a younger you, perhaps? esp since you were going back to where your grandparents used to live in the past?

3Ddonut, thanks I too hope I have a better time to night. Just t answer some of your questions.

Me and DH fine and getting along really well, we have had problems with his mum but DH is very supportive as he knows exactly what MIL is like.

With regards to my grandparents, my nana is still alive and well, but my grandad died 3 years ago and I miss him soooooooo much. He was like another dad to me, we were very close (I'm crying now just thinking about him not being here) I am very angry with myself because he never got to see DD, he would have been so good with her. He was a lovely, down to earth person, the sort of person no one could dislike.

DD is my first and only at the minute she is 12 weeks old now. I do feel protective towards her, but every mum feels like that I'm sure.

The grim reaper was weird as I didn't feel scared by him just his actions and what he wanted. He stood there in the long corridoor and smiled. It was the fact that he wanted me dead that was scary IYSWIM.
He doesn't feel intimidating to me at all, and if I was to give him a job I would say he would be a Victorian banker in the City.

Another very long post, sorry.

They officially apologised TODAY

Wellies&Pyjamas, I didn't get that vibe from her that she could have been me. I didn't see her face, but she had lovely long and shiny brown hair. She had a really nice and kind vibe to her like I could connect to that sort of person IRL IYSWIM.

Slim, no I didn't know about it. I do wonder though if it has been on the news if I have taken the information in subconciously (SP?)

I wonder if it's just to do with normal new parent anxieties then? A lot of it seems to fit. and a lot of sadness relating to your Grandad, you've probably dealt with his death in your own way at the time, but now your dd is here it's given your life such a different perspective and it's a 'family' time that your thoughts are back with him again. I don't understand why you feel 'angry' with yourself.

Your 'grim reaper' sounded like a banker to me but I didn't want to assume, do you have any financial worries?

Is your MIL overbearing? I still think that the aborigine could relate to communication probs but just assumed your dh because it was him that rode into you!

You realise that this could mean nothing at all and just be a nightmare? Why don't you try and have a nice relaxing bath before you go to bed and wind yourself down as much as you can, make sure everything is done that you want to do and try to clear your mind as much as you can.

Nappy, I have crazy scary dreams as well, usually when I am stressed.

The grim reaper was an interesting one. The fatcthat he just looked normal could suggest that now you are a mum you are much more aware of dangers from seemingly normal everyday things. Perhaps?