Heartbroken!!

[Fortyandfuckingheartbroken]

Hi All,
New to this site so please be kind. My husband walked out a few weeks ago only to return the next day full of apologies, claiming this is where he wanted to be and it was up to him to prove it. He even sat our 9 year old down and told her he wasn't going anywhere. Over the next 8 weeks he made no effort whatsoever to show he was sorry or wanted to be here. Infact, he made me think all the doubt was in my head, again claiming this was where he wanted to be. The situation caused me to start having panic attacks and his response once was "just fucking breathe"
After at least 8 weeks of living in a home where I felt I was walking on egg shells around him, I discovered some hotel/restaurant bookings that didn't add up. I confronted him and told him he had to start talking to me! He initially denied it, then claimed to have booked himself a night away as a treat!!
Then he told me he didn't have a spark for me and this was the end of the road for him. All this after HE came back claiming he wanted to be here. I am utterly devastated. He has been extremely angry towards me and hostile in communication since he left, which I don't understand as this is his choice!!
My kids don't want to see him which is understandably frustrating him and he blames me for this. I'm so heartbroken at how he could treat me this way and just feel like I can't go on

[Fortyandfuckingheartbroken]

Hi All,
New to this site so please be kind. My husband walked out a few weeks ago only to return the next day full of apologies, claiming this is where he wanted to be and it was up to him to prove it. He even sat our 9 year old down and told her he wasn't going anywhere. Over the next 8 weeks he made no effort whatsoever to show he was sorry or wanted to be here. Infact, he made me think all the doubt was in my head, again claiming this was where he wanted to be. The situation caused me to start having panic attacks and his response once was "just fucking breathe"
After at least 8 weeks of living in a home where I felt I was walking on egg shells around him, I discovered some hotel/restaurant bookings that didn't add up. I confronted him and told him he had to start talking to me! He initially denied it, then claimed to have booked himself a night away as a treat!!
Then he told me he didn't have a spark for me and this was the end of the road for him. All this after HE came back claiming he wanted to be here. I am utterly devastated. He has been extremely angry towards me and hostile in communication since he left, which I don't understand as this is his choice!!
My kids don't want to see him which is understandably frustrating him and he blames me for this. I'm so heartbroken at how he could treat me this way and just feel like I can't go on

[MarieIVanArkleStinks]

OP, for some reason this post bobbed up on my feed but you might get more traffic if you repost it on the relationships board. There are good posters on there with plenty of sage advice.

I'm sorry you are going through this pain and are feeling so low 💐

[LauderSyme]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. He is an arsehole who doesn't deserve you. Do repost in 'Relationships' for more helpful replies

[FortofPud]

FYI this is a post from July 2022, reignited by that spam post.

Hopefully you're in a better place now OP.

[LauderSyme]

@FortofPud oops 🙄 thanks!