Confused

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I really don't know where to start.
I am married with 3 girls. I always thought I would have more, perhaps because my mum used to do that ring thing, but I don't agree with that now. I still have all the baby and maternity stuff, clothes, cot, stroller etc. I don't know why I'm hanging on to it all, DH doesn't care, despite him being the end of the family line and we haven't had sex since April 2019. I'm not on the pill because quite frankly why? I feel rejected and my concern is once I start menopause he will then be interested. I get the feeling that he would rather not have sex than risk having another baby. He talks about the world the way it is, but so many of my friends are having babies, some are having 5/6.
At the moment I'm thinking of just getting rid of the toys to start with, but then my daughter gets upset.
I feel like I'm just in a waiting room Nd each day is sorting out the junk here. If I'm sitting down I get, what are you up to?

What age are you ? I had 6 boys and I am my youngest is 16 oldest 32 . I feel like I am just getting time for me the last 3 years were great . I became a granny and I love it! Now my menopause is coming on fast and I feel hot and flustered I thought I was going senile! I feel so depressed and definitely not sexy! I love my husband and we are still
Madly in love but I know I’m totally unreasonable sometimes. Where did our life go? If I were you I’d take the foot off the pedal and enjoy what you have . Before you know it your body will be in control . I can’t decide to not feel bad and enjoy this weekend, I have no energy. I wish I knew what I know now and I’d have enjoyed being a wife and mother knowi h for 10 years I was going to feel like this . Please don’t worry so much about those things store them ! I wish I’d kept mine. Here I am 50 and I have grandchildren and I have away all my beautiful cribs high hairs etc clothes even some of those never go out of fashion especially at granny’s where you just want them to get dirty and enjoy walks along the beach or woods but not in their new clothes ! Don’t give them away even if you are finished . Store them enjoy life and take each day as it comes. Look after yourself enjoy your husband . Without the worry of having a baby maybe your right maybe that does scare him . Take the fear away get your selves back to having fun enjoying what you have and maybe then things will work out that you do decide another child would be good? Maybe just never having his wife to himself scares him ? Believe me soon it won’t be a choice you can make. I can’t wait until in through this to start living my life again! You don’t want young kids when your going through the menopause either . This is me in hindsight! I had babies and loved every minute! I lost my son 10 yrs ago . He passed in his sleep at 16 . I had 5 kids 21,17,12 8 and 6 to look after and my husband got me this far ! I’m
Just saying this to maybe let you see how wonderful your life already is . Do what’s best for you as a couple your kids will soon be moving out and having their own kids . You need to keep the relationship with your husband healthy as one day it will be just you two again. Don’t get frustrated with him for fearing having more children show him you can still be you and have your time and have a family . You’ll need his support when your body starts to change. You’ll definitely need his understanding and patience. Just like he needs now. Don’t worry about the baby items one way or another you will need them again . Don’t keep them out on show like a constant reminder for him . Kids are amazing there’s no love like it . You need to remember before you know it they are visiting once a month if your lucky or once a week to drop of their kids . When that happens if you have dedicated yourself to them and forgotten your friends and family it’s a lonely place to be when you start getting emotional and crazy . I am there now ! I just can’t wait to be 60 lol apparently it’s the new 40 . When I’m through this and holidaying 3 times a year with my husband who goodness knows how is helping me through. I think it’s because we were always in it together. Talk to him . Get your sex life back! It will do you the world of good and if fear is what’s stopping him 🤷🏻‍♀️ There are two of you keep it that way? Don’t get rid of all those kids toys and books you’ll need them
Regardless just don’t worry about when x

Some bits appear to have been missing I was writing so fast the first sentence is missing 50, I have 6 boys I am 50 … I hope you can figure the rest out lol I probably should have read my rant before I sent it 😘

Thanks Weezy. I'm 44, kids 8, 12, 14.
Most things are in the garage.