Struggling. Need to vent.

[OnwardsEverStridingOnwards]

Hi all,

First post. I'm not a parent, but I've lurked on here for a while, and just need to vent.

I'm in my mid 20's, and have a disability. I also suffer with depression.

Last year, I joined a dating site and met someone I fell really In love with. Our relationship was quite intense and we loved each other. and we made a lot of plans for the future. I would have done anything for him, and I loved him so much. He said he loved me too, multiple times. It was his first relationship, and we shared a lot together.

One day, he announced (in a message) that he wasn't sure if he was in love with me anymore, and he wanted to be my 'friend' I said that I didn't want to be his friend, and we cut off contact.

I still really miss him and am finding it really hard. I don't have contact with him, but sometimes I still look at pictures of him, and feel a pang. I'm online dating again, and I think it's going well, but I still feel a bit anxious and feel like things will go wrong.

I feel like my life hasn't moved on and never will. I still live with my parents (the house is adapted for my needs. I've put myself on the social housing list though) and haven't been able to work because of my disability (retraining in another profession at the moment though)

I'm not sure where I'm going with this, but I suppose I just want to know is, will it get better?

Thanks for reading, and apologies if this is a bit garbled x

It will get better :-) won't feel like it right now or maybe even for the next few weeks but with time it will and you will meet someone else who makes you feel that way and all of this will be a distant memory. X

@Minnie6078 thank you so much ❤️

Yes, it will get better.
Pretty much everyone has at least one failed relationship under their belt.
It's really normal and also really normal to feel upset about it for a while.
You're young and have so much ahead of you.
Finishing your training, living independently, getting into a new relationship.
It'll all happen.
You're having a sad patch.
Be nice to yourself.
It'll pass.

@Eekay ❤️

I’m sorry this has happened.
How were things when you actually met?
Did you pick up any signs the last time you saw him that things were not going as well?

@Borntobeamum

I’m sorry this has happened. How were things when you actually met? Did you pick up any signs the last time you saw him that things were not going as well?

Yes, he was a bit quiet. But when we said goodbye I told him I loved him and he said he loved me too. Still doesn't make any sense.

I do worry that all men will leave me as well- my first boyfriend at college cheated with a friend, and then the only person I've ever really loved decided to leave me as well. I'm not dependent on men at all- I just want to be loved and hopefully have a family as well.