I think I need to stop feeding.

[Babybee2020]

I am writing this probably to help me deal with this for myself.
I've had baby 3 by c section due to the ravaged pelvic floor from 1 & 2.
She was sleepy, jaundiced lost >10% needed top ups. She's got reflux. Feeds hourly for a lot of the night. Needs held to
Sleep. Feeds a lot of the day for hours and hours.
I've seen a lactation consultant she's got posterior tongue tie but it's mild and Issue is my nipple is too big for her mouth.
I understand how to breast feed and the physiology of demanding feeding and night feeding.
I managed 6-7 months with the others.
I'm miserable. I'm horrible to my husband. I'm short tempered with my kids. I'm unreasonable. I cry a lot. I'm not happy.
Why has it come to this? I'm exhausted. I think I need to stop but I feel so selfish and also maybe won't even help!!
Any similar experiences?

"I've seen a lactation consultant she's got posterior tongue tie but it's mild and Issue is my nipple is too big for her mouth."

Get the tongue tie looked at by a specialist (go private if affordable) and get it cut. I don't know how these lactation consultants just decide what's "mild". A TT is a TT and needs seeing to! My DD had one and once it was cut it made such a huge difference. Feeding got much easier and slowly number of feeds (which was 18 a day at one point) reduced and the time they took reduced and she began to put a lot of weight on.

TT affects baby's ability to feed properly so they're not able to effectively feed and get tired after not very much milk so need to feed again soon after. Is feeding causing you pain? How old is your DC?

Also, I used to feel nipple was too big for mouth but they soon grow and suddenly that sorts itself out! All the best op x