So I have taken the step to end my awful relationship with my son's father.
It was the kind of relationship that was so miserable that everyday I would dread him coming home from work!
He would speak to me as if I was one of his many children, he would huff & puff if I asked him to do something, even when it involved our son.
He also had moments where he was nasty to our son, just the other night while our son was in our bed, he obviously couldn't get comfortable so he kind of led with his head on his dad & feet on me, after lots of fidgeting & still not getting comfortable he decided to throw our son off him & into the bed with his arm across his head holding him down into the bed....My little boys face was absolutely petrified!!
He also constantly uses the "do you want a smacked bum" towards him which I absolutely hate! My heart breaks for my little boy because I know he doesn't understand! The smallest thing our son does sets him off, it's like living on egg shells!
We have two dogs - 1 of them is petrified of him because of how nasty he's been to him in the past! It's so upsetting!
I'm going to struggle , I have no money and won't be able to afford pretty much anything - I am debating to give up my council house and move me and my son in with my mum but at 30 years of age I really don't want to lose having my own home!
My family hate my son's father , they think he's lazy & rude! Basically what all my friends thought - which of course I didn't believe and now I have no friends! Even when I see someone I know in the street & he's with me, he makes it so awkward, he stands there rolling his eyes, tutting, making it so obvious he doesn't want to be talking to them...even ignoring them when they speak to him....& it's even worse when it's a male I'm talking to!
I'm not taking him back , not even if I'm well below the bread line...I just need reassurance that it will all be okay & worth it & at 30 it's not to late to meet someone who will actually be lovely!