Hi, I'm sorry if this is on the wrong thread, I can't seem to find the right place for a discussion on this topic, and sorry to anyone who might find this a sensitive subject (please leave if so).
I had an abortion about 18 months ago. I had been with my boyfriend about 6 months, just graduated university and started a job which was making me depressed and miserable with 60+ hour work week so had plans to leave and travel the world.
We talked about it a lot, came very close to each other throughout, and decided to have an abortion. At the time I still didn't feel sure, but I don't think I ever would have been sure as I still don't know what the right thing would be. I cried in the waiting room and right after taking the tablets.
Now it's 18 months later I am still feeling sad about it, however I am also unbelievably broody. I write down baby names, always want to visit and see babies and children and dream of when I can have one myself. I feel deep down that having a baby might ease the pain of the abortion.
Does anyone have any advice? Me and my boyfriend leave for our travel year next week, the one we've planned since we met, so I keep thinking I could have a baby when we get back. I'm still 25 and my BF still thinks it's a bit early. I don't know how to feel better.