Im sat here watching Dr Otter, whilst stuffing myself with a small Dominos chicken and sweetcorn pizza with potato wedges, chicken strippers and a can of coke. It is my first day as being 20 (birthday yesterday) and I feel like s**t.
I went on holiday last Saturday with my mum and dd. Overall, I really enjoyed it, however mum kept making little comments that really got on my nerves, and it wasnt just about me, it was also about dp. I can tollerate ones towards me as Ive put up with it most of my life, but when she starts making comments about my dp, I think its just out of order. She doesnt say a bad word about my sister's dp, she probably wouldnt even dream of doing it, but with mine, she doesnt seem bothered. I kept my mouth shut, because as we were on holiday I didnt want to ruin it, as mum seems to think I always do anyway.
Yesterday when we were travelling back (yep travelling back on my birthday ) mum kept saying things again and blaming me for her taking wrong turns although I werent saying a word and I cant read her mind and know if shes lost unless she says something. Anyway, I was also upset with her as she hadnt wished me happy birthday. Not even when she gave me my presents. May seem a bit petty but it matters to me. In fact I spent the last hour as being 19 crying as I cant seem to figure out why my sister who is a complete slapper (sorry I dont really like her) can get away with anything (like mum allowed her to drive her car around although she hadnt pass her test) yet me who tries to always keep her happy even if it means taking the blame for something I havent done always ALWAYS gets treated like I dont exist.
When we got back, we went to mums. The original idea was to have a chinese takeaway with my family before I went out with dp and friends. But then mum was having a go at me about that!! I cant understand it, so I snapped! Not the best of times when its my birthday and we had only just got home, but I just had enough. I told her I feel like shes treating me like a kid, and that she treats my sister as if shes older (shes 2 years younger than me) and that Im sick of her making comments about dp, and that she never listens to me when I have a problem.
Well mum being mum thinks now that I think she never helps me out and I dont appreciate anything etc. Theres loads more to this story but I think Ive said enough so far, so Ill tell more throughout the thread. Thanks for being patient