At the abortion clinic

[dazedandconfuse]

I am currently at the abortion clinic, I booked the abortion about a month ago thinking I'd know what I wanted. I still don't know what I want. This is awful. Don't really know what I'm expecting putting it on here,
Guess I just needed somewhere to let it out. About to have a scan etc and then will be having a surgical abortion.

Just absolutely no idea if I can go through with this

How are you feeling? Does it feel like the right decision?

I've only just seen this thread and prayed for your last post to be there! I feel like I tell this story too much on here but if it makes you feel better about your decision,
I was with my ex and father of my DD when 6 months ago I got pregnant again, he told me he didn't want it, get rid of it and went mad when I told him I couldn't. Told me I didn't care about him or his opinion/feelings, I'm selfish etc.. and it felt like shit! Abortion entered my head, I all of a sudden had this pregnancy forced upon me and really wasn't sure what I wanted to do. I already have a child and was not ready for another. I chose to keep my baby, he's still cooking away in there and I can't say I've 100% bonded like I did with my DD but I'm happy with my decision. If I had an abortion I'd have regretted it for the rest of my life, when I hold my son I won't regret a thing.
I'm so glad you chose not to go ahead, it will be hard and you will doubt yourself but nothing will ever compare to the love you'll have for your baby

I now just have the problem of telling the baby's dad I haven't had the abortion.

He is a total d head, but still one of my best friends and we (stupidly) hang out often, about once a week.

He'll be angry when he finds out, does anyone think he might change his mind about wanting nothing to do with the baby? Or will our contact be over forever? Just interested in people's thoughts on that, though he is an arsehole and i should probably accept that he'll never change.

Really feeling relieved I didn't go through with the termination, I've started thinking of how I need to be prepared in the next few months. I told my mum, she's not over the moon but she just wants me to be happy.

Why do you need to see this bloke at all at the moment? I would give it a long break so you can get your head round things.

Glad you made the decision you're happy with

From your description of him, and saying he’ll be furious, I wouldn’t tell him face to face. I’d text him and lie low at your mums for a bit until he calms down.

How are you OP?

Hey :) I'm really good actually.

I'm very happy I didn't go through with it. I'm looking forward to the rest of my pregnancy and life with my new baby. I cant imagine how I'd be feeling right now had I had the termination.

I know things are going to be difficult but I can't help but feel positive for the future. I thank you guys so much for your support ❤️❤️❤️

How was he when you told him?

...congratulations!

Haven't had a chance to tell him yet 😬

He's unwell in hospital, so didn't think it was appropriate to tell him until he was out. So should all be out and in the open in the next couple of days

Congratulations 😊 Tell him in your own time, and ignore anyone who doesn't join you in celebrating and welcoming this baby x

Congratulations OP
You tell him in your own time. Do not be bullied or made to feel bad.

Fwiw, my DM got all the way to a clinic hundreds of miles away to have a termination (of me!) but got up and came home. A lot more common than you probably think.

I am sure everyone on here will be here and supporting you when you have your baby. You are not alone and there are some wonderful people in this world. Good luck

Congratulations!

So glad you’re feeling happy and well, congratulations!