Feeling a bit crappy.

[wellsie]

It's our wedding anniversary today and I think it's been the worse one ever.
DH and I have been married for 5yrs and I love him to bits, but since DS was born 6mths ago life has been a real rollercoaster.
What with a dose of PND, no sex life (I'm completely not interested), and no life come to think of it, today has been quite depressing. I've seen a few wedding parties today and it's made me quite tearful.
DH and I had a row this afternoon over nothing and in between mumsnet and cleaning the house, today has been like any other day.
I think I'm mourning my old life and I'm wondering if this is how my new life is going to be. I can see myself turning into my mother - help!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you get any grandparents to look after kids for night so you can have some time to yourself - there is nothing like it!!! Feels like being free!!!!

Tessiebear, no relatives nearby, but I also now have this problem of leaving DS with anyone other than DH. I worry that he will cry the whole time I'm gone and that terrifies me - I've got issues haven't I?!

Oh honey , sounds like today was pretty shit.

FWIW, I think everyone feels like you do for a period after the initial 'OH WOW' bit of early parenthood wears off. The PND is most probably multiplying these perfectly natural and normal feelings and making everything seem 100 times worse than they would seem of your were free from the dreaded PND. Are you on meds for your depression ? A full and frank discussion with your GP or HV may help.

I wish I could offer more, but I have to go as the pc is in DS2's bedroom and it's his bedtime.

Big hugs
Lxx