Did anyone find it difficult when they knew they woudn't be having anymore children?

[Sparkler1]

Interested to hear from others.
DH and I have two dds, 7 and 5. Always said pre-children we would have two and only two. DH has his vasectomy booked in six days time and I'm feeling really sad about it.
It sit and wonder what it would be like to have another, some days I think I probably couldn't cope with another. Not only that DH and I could really do with getting some "us" time back again after the last seven years of parenthood. I've had awful depression (started with PND after dd2 born) so I have no idea why I should want to put more pressure/worries on me or dh for that matter.
So why do I still have this niggling feeling inside of me "What if I had another?"
DH has made his mind up completely, and isn't shifting, that he wants no more babies. I can see his reasons why.
DH went for vasectomy counselling a couple of months back and I had to go with him. The doctor never once asked me to discuss my feelings about it, I did have to sign a form to say happy for dh to go ahead which I did reluctantly as I felt there was no other option.

Dh went for a vasectomy over a year ago but there was a medical problem and they couldn't do it under local. I was in tears for weeks beforehand and begged dh not to have it doen but he was adamant.

I got pg with ds1 (baby number 5) last year and he is now 12 weeks old. Dh is thrilled we have a son and I firmly believe it was meant to be.

Dh is now insisiting that he go and have it done (under general) and although I don't really want another one I still can't bear the thought of it being so Final

My DH had a vasectomy 6 weeks ago. We have 3 DC, the youngest 22 months. I felt a sense of relief immediately after he had had it done. I saw a friend this morning who has 3 dc the same ages as mine. She told me that she is pregnant with dc 4. I did feel a slight 'aww that could have been me'. However I know deep down we are really pushed as it is, and our 3 dc would be more neglected, and our relationship put under more strain by a new addition to our family.