Last night I went to my DP's family party and (this may sound horrible) but it was the most boring time of my life. Mainly because the conversation seemed to be a battle of who knows the most. I hardly spoke all night.
My DP and his family are very cleaver and all in well paid jobs. Me on the other hand, I'm just an Admin Assistant and I'm not the brightest spark to be honest.
At one point, my DP's Aunt went round asking everyone "what's their favourite place they have ever been to and why?" Everyone had answers like India, Switzerland or Paris. When I was younger my parents didn't have much money, they could only afford a weekend at Skegness or a week in Spain (if they saved hard). Anyway, it got to my turn and I answered I don't have a favourite place. Everyone was like no you have to answer (in my head I was thinking f... off), so I gave them an honest answer and said wherever I'm happy. Everyone just looked at me and I just wanted to cry.
Eventually when I got home I did cry and I explained to DP how tonight left me feeling really stupid and I felt like I didn't fit in. He told me that's why he loves me because I'm not pretentious.
I'm 1 month pregnant
and even though DP said all those lovely things I can't stop crying and feeling stupid (not sure if it's my hormones?)