im broody too ... but i dont want anymore kids (??!) ...

[kittylette]

i dont get broody over babies, apart from my own they dont interest me, and i know i couldnt cope with another

but i get sooo jealous of pregnant women, baby bumps, giving birth ect,

my MIL is being a surrogate for my SIL, and we've discussed me doing it for her too - for years!! theyre going through their 2nd round of IVF next month, and i feel awful for this (please dont think im a monster) but part of me kinda hopes it isnt successful (oh god did i just type that?? ) so i can do it for her!

i know it sounds awful

i dont want a baby, i just want to be pregnant

the surogacy has been discussed time after time, ive been menatlly preparing myself for years, granted you can never be fully prepared for something like that, but i have the complete frame of mind that its not my baby and im just doing a very big favour, for my beautiful SIL,

i dont know why im typing this, i just have to let it out

i doubt ill be surrogating anytime soon - if ever, especially if my MIL sucessfully gives her a baby,

i have this desire to do this

maybe i could do it for another couple?

im just thinking out loud here

i dont see it as a crazy thing, alot of women do it, and i always had this desire to do it someday, even before i found out about my SIL not being able to carry a baby, it just seems its something im meant to do, im babbling now!

plus DF threw it in the mixer by saying he wants another!!

to which the answer is no way!!!

hmmmmm

tricky

surrogacy is very selfless and a wonderful thing to look at doing.....

however, your MIL is doing it for a relative , so she will see the baby, no? don;t know if that would be easier or harder than being a surrogate for someone you don;t know and will not see again regularly

do you really think you could carry a baby for someone and then give birth, and hand the baby to someone else?

i don;t think i could, and i am full of admiration for someone who could do that

did you love being pregnant? maybe because you are having a bit of a rough time, you want to be pregnant again because that was enjoyable??

you are so young kitty. you have so much time to have more babies of your own, if that is what you and DF want

i dont want anymore babies though,

i mean i could feel completely different in 5 years time, but for now a baby of my own is the last thing on my mind.

and i honestly dont think it would affect me seeing the baby, because its not mine, its someone elses, someone elses egg and sperm, nothing to do with me at all.

i think thats the key really, feelig like that, if i had any doubts or inclinations that i may feel attached id back right off straight away but it dont feel that way at all!