Dont know why i am telling you this

[meguilty]

last year i had an unplanned pg. It was a VERY big shock, I never wanted any more, not in proper relationship etc etc. The list against having the baby went on forever. i booked a termination 3 times and on the last was about to get on the table....literally...but something just stopped me. I had a terrible pg and just kept wishing i wasnt pg.

i now have the most beautiful baby who is the absolute joy of my life. Last year i thought my life was over, it has actually started again. I just thank god every day for my precious baby. I am suffering terrible guilt though and sometimes look at my baby and just sit and cry. ijust feel so bad.

but you had her and thats the important thing MG.

even those of us who planned our pregs get that feeling of terror, i can't begin to imagine how hard it is when it's unplanned

please don't be so hard on yourself. you have your beautiful little baby to prove you made the right decision for you. you did nothing wrong!

{{{{hugs}}}}

MG... enjoy your baby and leave the past behind. Congratulations

you shouldn't feel guilt, you were in a rougfh place and you considered your options.

enjoy the life you have created for yourself.

it is your future together that counts, i think... how can you go about letting go of this issue, it really is of no importance to your dd...

i don't know what to say but would like to give you a hug. loving your baby and yourself is the most important things right now.

My initial reaction was: Don't torture yourself with "What if..?"s - you have a beautiful baby - enjoy her.

But, if this is not just a one off feeling, maybe you could talk to your gp & see about some counselling to help you come to terms with the guilt you are experiencing. It sounds as though circumstances weren't ideal and you had a very difficult decision to make. Whatever options you considered, you made a choice and you made the right one. I'm glad you feel so positive about what you have now.

So, don't torture yourself with the "What if..?"s - get some sleep and enjoy your wonderful baby