Its my bday today. ive spent the entire day alone at home with dd (3 months) who has had a nasty cough for two weeks. A relative phoned up to let off steam to me about someone else in the family and really depressed me, and then dd had a nasty choking fit and started getting very distressed and making a strange whining sound. i phoned the night doctor (at 8.30) and explained, only to be told that they wouldnt send anyone out (as normal around here), the night clinic didnt have an appointment until 10pm and could i go to a clinic miles away? No, i cant drive, dont know where it is, cant rely on a taxi and have no-one to look after ds while i take dd. Ok, could i go to a different clinic miles away? no, for the same reasons. ok then come down to us and we'll make time to see you. 5 mins later, after i had to ring a friend to take me (and i was lucky she wasnt at the pub) they ring me back and tell me i cant come to them after all. by this time dds breathing is getting rather dodgy so i take her to a & e. (this is too similar to how ds used to be before an asthma attack and i dont want to take any chances) As it happened, they got her in quickly, checked her over and put it down to a lot of mucus going down her throat in one go but i cant help wondering what would have happened if it had been serious. when we were in the car on the way there, ds went completely still and stared and stared without blinking and i just thought "oh my god". It has frightened me so much. The doctor said i did the right thing by bringing her to a & e but should it really have had to come to that? I feel ill. sorry...just needed to let that out