and I just want to sit down and cry.
Yes I know I've already posted this - but the last title didn't really sum it.........so reposting with the 'appropriate' title.
First of all slept in. Woke up at 8.15 so had to run around like a maniac getting DS1 ready for school. Then had to call the dr.s to get an emergency appointment to get the Morning After pill. Got that for 11.20 - so it screwed up my morning. Thankfully no ill effects, apart from a severe case of "PMT" (obviously won't know if it's worked for a few weeks ). Rushed back home and had lunch (and took the pill) then had to dash off to work to see my NVQ assessor. Got back, put DS2 down for a sleep, got DS1 from school. Sat down for a while and then started dinner about 5.30 (as per normal) Phone rang - didn't get off for ages. Because of my sh*tty food processor it took me 1hr to get the fish cake recipe I was doing into the oven. I've just took them out and they're cooling down - but I've not done any starch to go with it or veg (not too worried about that as there's tons in it).
It's now 7.30 - the kitchen looks like a bomb has hit it, it's been raining so I couldn't hang my washing outside - so my uniform is still damp and I need it dried and ironed by 9.20pm. The kitchen looks like it's had two bombs dropped on it (faffing around with that bl**dy processor and using flour didn't help). The boys have (thankfully) just tidied up the living room so it doens't look too bad. But I need to wait for their dinner to cool down, put new sheets on DS1's bed and get them ready for bed by 8pm (or there abouts). I then have to tidy the kitchen up, try and get my uniform sorted out, eat my dinner, prepare something extra to go with the fish cakes (DS's can have bread ) and make sure the house is in 'order'.........before I then dash off to work at 9.30 (after DH gets in at about 9.25). I'll then be asleep most of tomorrow, but have a parents evening in the evening, then toddler group to play the piano for on Thursday, plus a meeting in the evening. The vicar is coming over on Friday morning to sort out the hymns for the next month or so, I've got choir practice in the evening, then work again. Saturday is DS1's 6th birthday - but I'll be spending most of it in bed (because I'm working this weekend). Working Saturday night, play for the service on Sunday morning.............I've also got my NVQ work to be getting on with.
And then of course on top of all that I'm going to have the constant worry in the back of my head of "what if" the morning after pill doesn't work..........
I just want to be able to sit down one evening and relax without worrying about all this stuff