I am feeling so awful. I seem to be losing the ability to be a good Mum to my boys atm & it doesn't take much for me to lose the plot & shout. I always feel awful afterwards & apologise because I know I am wrong to lose it like I do, but I don't feel in control.
The worst thing is, I am soon going to be a single parent & I fear I will not cope at all.
I have had a hard few months, but on the outside I appear to be coping. The reality is that I am not coping with life at all atm & I feel I cannot be a good Mum to my boys because I have a terrible short fuse.
My eldest DS has difficulties, & although he has not been assessed, I am pretty sure he is dyspraxic because the symptoms describe him perfectly. The thing is, he can be very frustrating. He doesn't do as he is told until he has been told several times & simple things like "Put your shoes on" or "Put your seat belt on" have to be repeated several times before he actually does it, which gets very frustrating.
I normally cope a lot better with everything, but just lately I seem to have very little patience & feel a terrible Mum.
I am feeling so run down & like I am not cut out to be a Mum atm. I am so scared of going it completely on my own as I don't feel I will cope.
I would be grateful of any advice, as I feel so awful & don't want to be a monster Mum.