ok so it was DS1's first sports day today supposed to be from 1.45-3.15. they'd decided to make it short (very short as it turns out) with just one 50m race per child - taking them out of the school in year groups and then straight back in to the cool.
Anyhow, I didn't know this until I got there. I worked last night (for those that don't know I work nights - 9.45-7am) and had a really awful sleep this morning, just couldn't settle. Got up at 1.15 had a quick shower, got DS2 up and went over to watch him running. On the way another parents (also running late) told me that they'd shortened it drastically because of the heat.........and that they thought reception year was first.
I got across to the otherside of the park (about 1.50) where they were doing it to find - yes they were only doing one race, reception first and that I'd missed DS1 running. I asked one of the teaching assistants (who's also a friend from church) if he'd run and she said yes - but that he'd come second. I saw him as they were heading back to class and said well done - but the look on his face told me that he knew I hadn't seen him run - and when we got home he confirmed that.
He's never been very 'sporty' (unlike DS2) so for him to come 2nd in his race would have been such an achievment for him. I nearly burst into tears there and then.
I still feel awful now, it was his first sports day, I'd promised him I'd be there (hence getting up nearly 2hrs earlier than I would usually have done) but I missed him running. He said he'd looked for me - but couldn't see me - and that his best friends mum was cheering him (the best friend on) - but that he (the best friend) came first.
I know there'll be another one next year - but I really do feel awful and just want to burst into tears. I should have been there cheering him on too