I'm finding it difficult, very difficult. It just hit me this morning. I hadn't even got out of bed and dh was saying "we have to get rid of the table today, and the oven can go, the kitchen cupboard, blah blah blah." and I just lost it. I know we can live without these things for now, but I just needed 5 mins to get my head round it.
I hate it, dd's friend keeps asking why we are going back, why we can't stay, why dd won't be starting County Primary with him in Sept and I can't answer him! I said goodbye yesterday to one of her friend's mums, I might not see her again and she's been so good, took dd horse riding as a birthday present yesterday and had her over all day. I don't want to say goodbye, I know it has to be done. I'm not sure I can cope with everything. Going to England, living at the farm with dh's parents, starting a new job on dd's birthday, possibly having to stay in a B&B in Carlisle so might not even see her on her birthday, getting used to driving in England, everything is such a rush rush rush. It can't be helped, but I'm not coping very well right now. I have to sort out furniture today, what goes and what stays. I have to throw more things out, we don't have room for them. I don't want to get rid of any of the kids things, it's heartbreaking. I just can't do this.