Really, REALLY upset about weight.

[nannyme]

I can't bring myself to put this in the weight loss bit as I don't want to join that club iyswim - being fat has never been me but it is now - just don't wish to adnmit it.

Some of you may recall I was being tested for Glandular Fever due to throat infections galore and tiredness...

My test came back negative but I also mentioned a shopping list of things that were bugging me at the appointment with my GP and I have been referred to a colon surgeon and also for a thyroid test which I had today.

The reason I am so fed up - and I mean really fed up not just a bit of a miffed day is that I am getting bigger and bigger and bigger.

Okay I am crying now as I type this

I was always 7.5 stone before having babies and I am 5'2" and accept that my weight will never return to that skinny size now that my boobs have grown with breast feeding, etc. I got down to 8.5 stone after having my 2nd baby 4 years ago and went back up when I had Max who is now almost 3.

Since having him the lowest I have got down to is 9 stone but that was when my OH was very ill in hospital and I didn't eat for days on end and was stressed out beyond belief.

Right now I am 10 stone 12lbs and for the weight don't carry it too badly but now that I am this heavy I do look FAT.

I have NEVER looked fat before or had trouble buying clothes.

The bit that is killing me is that I am (although I had a break between March and May due to illness/tiredness) going to the gym 4-5 times a week for 2 hours each time and burning on average 400-600 calories each time - focusing on cardio one day and aerobic the next so that I build muscle and fitness as well as 'fat-burn'. Also I eat less than 1400 calories a day despite the recommendation (I had a fat assessment at the gym last week in desperation) that I have 2200 calories.

Today I had a salad sandwich, a fruit smoothie, an avocado with smoked salmon and two slices of toast and water to drink and that was it for the whole day. This is fairly typical for me.

I am terrified my thyroid will be normal (odd thing to say but is true) and that I will have no answers. The GP said, if it is negative then I just have to accept I am one of millions trying to lose weight and that I need to see the practice dietician. Thanks! Great!

This is very long, I am sorry. Expect most of you will have given up byt htis stage.

Please don't feel I want people to feel sorry for me I just need to off load and also hope somebody might have a bright idea or experience that might give me some answers.

I am mortified I have become one of those atypical fat people moaning about how their current diet doesn't work.

I cook my own meals with organic veg and meat - wtf am I supposed to do?

If what you say is a usual week I cannot believe that your thyroid would come back as normal tbh nannyme..
Sympathies - do not beat yourself up until you know all the facts babe

Off to bed now but I think maybe you;re not eating enough?? Can you speak to the gym instructor, if they recommend 2200 is that to lose weight or maintain? If you're doing that much exericise I would think you'd need to eat more. Have a chat with them

{{{{Big Hugs}}}}
Seems to me your taking the right steps and tackling this head on, so try not to be too hard on yourself, wait for your test results and then take it from there, are you keeping a food diary, it looks like you are?

sorry you're feeling so rotten. I do know how you feel as you could be describing me a year ago. I'm 5'2" and weighed 7.5 stone pre kids. Lost most of it after dd and then put a lot on for ds. I got weighed when I was having an operation last year and was shocked to discover I was 10 stone 13, so the same as you! I'm now down to 9 stone and am happy at this weight. I joined a slimming world club with my mum as we both wanted to lose weight for my sister's wedding and it seems to work. The thing is, we were told that not eating enough can stop you from losing weight and someone I used to know was told the same by his doctor. Do you think that could be part of your problem? I've certainly been eating a lot more than you and still losing weight plus you are doing loads of exercise so I can quite understand why you are upset and disappointed. I don't know if I've been any help but I hope things start going your way soon.

Crossed posts with Delgirl. I'm such slow typist!

Thanks for replying to my yawnsome thread.

I hate diet bores so I am impressed to have replies :)

I need 1700 cals or something to carry out normal bodily function so I think 2200 is actually maintenance but I think I assumed for loss at the time but probably wasn't (?) iyswim.

piffle you have inspired me to look on the bright side (that's the weirdy bright side where I do have a thyroid problem).

I am not sure about the notion of 'starvation mode' which somebody else has suggested as I have tried to tackle that in the recent past by eating more cals than I have been of late. It didn't do anything except tip the scales the wrong way and make me bloated as I was eating 'good' carbs.

Now, whatever I do my arse gets wobblier in the night and I wake up fatter.

These are other symptoms of an underactive thyroid: feeling tired and sleeping excessively
easily feeling the cold
dry and thickened skin
coarse, thinning hair and eyebrows and brittle nails
sore muscles, slow movements and weakness
depression and problems with memory and concentration
weight gain
constipation
fertility problems and increased risk of miscarriage
heavy, irregular or prolonged menstrual periods

If it isn't this then I can only agree with trying to eat more (good stuff of course!) And the practice dietitian may just be the way to go...