So have been mulling over numbers for wedding reception (its SO HARD! please help me get my numbers to 60!) and got quite upset at my lack of friends to invite which leads me to this rant.
Basically the 3 friends I knew on my course have now left the course. 1 died in October and 2 have had to drop out due to illness (partly related to our friend's sudden death).
This means I am going back on Monday knowing nobody. I know it sounds silly but I am finding that really hard.
I knew the course had high drop out rates but I didn't think it would affect me personally so much. I love the course but honestly I am finding the social side very very stressful and upsetting. Ho hum. And thinking of wedding numbers just upsets me because everyone said I would make so many friends on this course and i haven't. And I know I wil make friends but I am sad that I won't be graduating with my 3 original friends kwim? I feel really lost.