Feeling angry about the effects of a suicide - not what I expected to think.

[thisisnotwhatiwanttofeel]

Have namechanged because of sensitive issue and knowing people in RL.

I think (thought?) I have a pretty good understanding of mental health issues in general and issues around suicide. I have never 'blamed' anybody for suicide nor felt anything other than compassion for those who take their own lives.
However recently I spoke to someone who it turned out had discovered the body of a colleague who had commited suicide. This person appears shattered by this event. It will clearly affect their life for years to come and as they were telling me about it all I could feel was rage with the person who did this. How dare they harm themselves in such a way, knowing that somebody they knew would find them. How could they do that. I just don't understand that. Can anybody begin to explain this to me because I am shocked by how angry I feel. The poor soul who made the discovery didn't seem angry at all. Just shattered.

Oh so much pain Thanks everybody for responding though, I feel less like a compassion lacking cow now. I'm a very touchy feely liberal type and the just the pure anger I felt on behalf of this person really rocked me.

Spring, we are all a product of our experiences, there is no way that it was going to have no effect on your relationship. When we are that age we are not programmed to over think what other people are feeling, only to what it means to us.
Your Mum was ill, and as such she couldn't focus on what it would mean to you. However, if she has been well she would have been able to empathise with you and give you all the love and support you needed.
I can see that your bouts of depression are probably related to your childhood. Do you ever feel that you want to go and have a clear out with some talking therapy or such like?

Never - please don't worry about me, I am actively dealing with it and have been doing so for some time. I posted on this thread because I hoped the OP would be reassured to know that others also feel anger towards those who attempt or commit suicide. I'm in a pretty good place right now, but thank you for your concern, it's appreciated.