I'm a stupid cow sometimes......

[sparklymieow]

Just pulled up from picking up the kids, and outside next doors house on the road is a car parked taht looks just like the one Apeman used to drive, why did my heart skip a beat and why did I come over all nervy?? I know he is in prison and won't be out for years, i really am silly sometimes.

BTW my heart didn't skip a beat in a good way, it was horrible, my heart pumped fast and I freaked.

natural i think sparkly. just horrible association.

Its like when I drop my friend to her mum's house there is a car there that look like the youngest brothers car, I always feel nervous when I see it. The thing is I know in my mind they are all in prison, but when I see someone who looks like them or a car like theirs, I just get so jumpy.

Totally understandble.

how long will this last?? I hate not feeling myslef.

Probably until you move. I am sorry you are feeling this way, and the delay is not helping is it ?

No It isn't. I know that I will be looking over my shoulder when they are released.

When they are released, you will have moved and will be of no interest to them.

Stay strong not long now.

thats true. I spoke to the HA and they think it should be soon, just feel so up in the air about it all, as we have no idea when we will be moving, my house is upside down, can't find anything, and I am a person who needs to know what I am doing and I don't atm. It doesn't feel like we are moving and we ahven't even seen inside it et.

Well my life is nothing like as complicated as yours and I have just had a mini panic attack, at least I think that is what it was, so you have my sympathy, that feeling of having no control over your own destiny is horrible.

I have panic attacks, they are horrible. Hope you are ok.
I did think about taking dd1 over to the building site and see if the builders will let me in the house, as she doesn't cope with change and I need to prepare her for it, I have been talking to her lots about it, but she will need to see it before we move or she will freak out.