It is not as simple as just going back to work - partly because I am ttc (nothing happening in that department unfortunately, but still I can't put my life on hold on the offchance that I do get pregnant) and also because we live abroad and I am not particularly employable.
I need something that I can fit around the children.
I dearly wish I could set myself up as a bf counsellor, or a baby signing teacher. But I am not quallified in either of those things and no training exists where I live.
Or I could study... something. But what? It would need to be something useful or I would feel as though I am manufacturing things to do.
I want to be a dental nurse or a hygenist eventually, but again, no training for that here and you can't do that by correspondence course. Maybe I could do the A-levels I would eventally need for that?
Or... some sort of cottage industry and get a table at craft fairs? Not very inspiring.
Or volunteer at the local animal rescue? Oof.
I am not good at having nothing to do. I am also (being honest here) not a highly motivated person. If I wake up in the morning and no one would even know if I got out of bed or not that day, I get very down and lazy and stay in my pyjamas all day eating crisps and feeling useless. I need to do something that makes a difference, or that matters, or that people would notice if I didn't do it that day.
I have no one to discuss this with, and am really hoping Mumsnetters will be able to help.