Over the past few weeks, I have recently had increasing feelings for a man other than my husband.
The first time I saw R I didn't like him at all and thought he was quite bolshy, arrogant and cocky etc, but, the more I have got to know him, the more we get on. I am 110% certain that this man has no idea how I feel, I don't see him all the time (last time over a week ago) but we stood and talked for quite a while. He is his own boss and I had a chance to have a few hours a weeks work, but I have declined this.
He is married (as am I) with two young children (as am I) and I am again 110% SURE rhat nothing would ever happen, and he probably doesn't even remember my name, only sees me as someone that he has dealings with due to his line of work, I WON'T change places etc as his company products are fabulous. If I were single, he would be the kind of bloke I made a beeline for, blonde, tall, green eyes, nice smile, quite fit, good sense of humour and a good business head, the total opposite to my hubby, (who I would NEVER leave, hurt or cheat on).
Basically I don't know how to deal with these feelings and find myself thinking about R quite alot and look forward when I have to go to his work and I ALWAYS make a point of looking out for him.
What do i do? I feel like a schoolgirl again