not sure where this needs to be, thought about the feeling drpessed board, but noe depressed really.
I was wanting to go to the hospital and couldnt egt hold of MIL (turns out she was in a metting till 3pm), so was feeling angry and upset earlier. but then i picked up dd1 from scfhool. on the way back MIL asked if i wanted to go to the hospital. i said to dd1 we were going, but she said she didnt want to go. i dont belive in forcing her to go, she is pretty headstrong, and its the 1st week back so atm is still settling back into teh school routine and is rpetty tired at the end of the day. MIL ahreed with em to leave it for the rest of the week to get the girls settled back into school. usually i go to the hospital during the day but my parents are away so my lifts arent about this week. dd2 starts preschool tmorrow so cant go then, so could be doing thursday after school, but the kdis are shattered at the end of the day. i feel guilty that i feel relaieved at not having to go to the hospital this week. its so draining going there, and tbh i'll be glad when i pass my test so i can go on my terms and not anyone elses if that makes sense.
massive headstorm going on atm.