In a moment of practicality and sense I cancelled my day spa (AM I MAAAAAAD)for today my dh had booked for me. Half was being paid for by my new job and half by dh. But I felt it was too self indulgent and extravagant. The only thing is I forfeited a day to myself as the last few months have been more than mental ferrying my dd all over London for a job Im doing , working days, nights, weekends and even 3am when I cant sleep over worry.I have done all this and been more or less full time parenting, so Im a bit wrecked. I tried to book a local lady for a couple of treatments today at a more reasonable expense, but theres been no reply. Im not quite sure were to go now to have some pampering and me time locally as she offers a holistic and personal approach. IM desparate to get away from house,dh, dd, head and phone!!!!!
The last few months the stress has really been getting to me and today having cancelled Ive been really upset and low all day. Im a sensitive person anyway , but my strength and assuredness is waning badly. Ive been soo much better this year than last(many of you saw all my threads on various problems). I havent felt like this for a long time. Im hoping its just down to AF time but I just needed to get it out today, dh just keeps getting upset at the weird noises (you know when you need to cry but it wont come out!!!)emanating from me this afternoon as I sit on my pc seeking solace from my yuckk anxiety feeling inside.
Bet Im gonna feel like a right chump once Ive posted this ,especially as theres far more important worries and concerns on here.