I am having real trouble coping with ds this morning. Every time we start playing it is obvious that ds is cross and out of sorts and I am just not in the mood to play either somehow. I find the playing necessary with ds the hardest bit of being a parent.
Today we have, made cakes, read and played a bit but every time we start something ds starts to get upset and angry with me because 'I am doing it wrong' and quite frankly |I feel like a child myself and am a bit at a loss on how to handle him.
It has got so bad that I have put the tv on for a bit this morning. Something I haven't done in the morning for several months of being at home with him every day (apart from his 2.5 hrs of nursery a day). The problem is that when the tv went off, the whole thing started again - worse this time.
He has finally stopped poking and hassling me to play with him (which I am now refusing to do as each time we have tried this morning it has ended in him crying or scratching me or hitting me within 5 mins of starting) and has gone into the garden to entertain himself a bit (it will be 10 mins max).
I feel so guilty because I have had to shout at him to get him to play alone for a bit. DS really only plays alone if I insist and if I am really stern with him which always leaves me feeling like s*t
Really I think most of this is because we moved to a new area 3 months ago and I am really feeling the lack of having a friend I can call with another only child or just to chat to who will jump at the the chance of a meet-up even at short notice (usually) to keep the children a bit amused. I knew 4-5 families like me this before we moved. Ds is also bored I know.
Also I just started a part time job which is better frankly for me than being at home all day but I am a bit stressed about it as it is a very new type for job for me. On top of this dh is about to go away for 4 days on a conference and I am dreading it. In the past this him going away fro a few days would not have bothered me.
Since we have moved I have found it more and more difficult to just enjoy ds's company. I am SOOOO much happier when we go out with other people and their child(ren) as ds just goes off to play with them and I can actuslly have a break from what seems like constant demands to play.
I suppose this is posted here rather than in 'parenting' because I can't actually see this improving much with time, ds will just complain more about being bored. Until now he has been quite happy just with me or dh (or preferably both) but as he gets older the lack of siblings or cousins his age and in fact now (after our move) the lack of good friends his age is really beginning to show.