I'm feeling really overwhelmed, my mental health is struggling a lot, concerning our family life and the situation I did not see coming & should have, I feel immense guilt, tiredness, exhaustion for our only child only having only me & my partner for her, taking her out, buying her things & the lack of cousins, uncles, aunts & involved grandparents. She has my step dad who loves her to bits but still has 10 yrs of work ahead, works shifts so see him just when we can. Both me & my partner had awful upbringings, his mother wasn't there for most of his life, saw his dad work his butt off for him/siblings & my mother struggled to raise me & half sister as came from a poor b/ground no help from parents as dad was old and her mum died when she was very young, she had 6 siblings but none of them kept in touch. I lost my mum just 6 wks after my child was born due to a late stage diagnosis of cancer just before I found out I was pregnant, that was hard to take at the start of Mat leave which in itself started terribly due to a 20 hr back to back labour resulting in 4 nt stay in hospital, 3rd degree year & broken coccyx, took me well over 2 yrs to feel partially normal as I'd lost 5 nts of sleep before I even came home. To top this off my husband became unwell prob due to stress whilst on Mat leave with an incurable disease and his health has been badly affected, he is still managing to work but he doesn't look well! My bio father is constantly in/our hosp for AILD & only has me left, I've had to speak to SS re a needs assessment etc as he's elderly now. Sorry this is a lot, I just don't know how we became so engrossed in working so damn hard to achieve a nice home in a nice area thinking we'd be ok' that it wouldn't affect her not having any cousins, aunts and uncles. My DP siblings and mine are nothing like either of us and don't bother with us at all, it's been awful, truely heartbreaking for our DC. To make matters worse where we chose to setup family has turned out not ideal, it's very quiet although a large family house estate, hardly see children, only one girl in our ateeet she could eventually play with but she's 2 yrs younger, ours is almost 4. We committee to doing our kitchen/diner to make more sociable as closed off a yr ago which has been paid for etc but now we've had chance to take a breath after 3 yrs of no sleep we've relaised this might not be the best area for her. I just feel like it's problem after problem and I'm mentally exhausted like I feel ready to drop but I can't and I also feel like I just wish this wasn't my life! How didn't I see this all coming and how do we cope with the guilt! We'd have another but I'd be 39 and don't know if we'd cope with anymore lack of sleep as that's been horrendous too and both so worn out. Nothing ever seems to work out for us and no one gives a toss about us all eirher. I take her to all parties, arrnage play dates etc too but Fri/sat evenings feel so lonely for her, I had step cousins at least from stepFather but she doesn't even have that, what a mess 😖