I have a little girl who is soon to be turning 3.
We have had a really emotionally tough time since her birth (hasn't everyone with covid though !!) the first year was tough pre covid just with coping with a very highly strung new born snd getting to grips with being a mum , and then the following two years were tough because of covid restrictions- isolation, working from home for both me and my husband- spending every waking second together, losing identity within motherhood but also other life factors like not seeing anyone or doing anything - the longer I didn't take time for me the harder it has been to begin . We are moving house soon so we have the space to live and work at home which we are hoping will help in terms of the close proximity to one another .
I want to want another child but I long to find myself again first and be happy and comfortable in my own identity. I fear if I had a second anytime soon it would be for the sake of giving my daughter a sibling alone and my mental health would take a deeper nose dive. Apart from anything a screaming newborn in the same house as my husband trying to work would just be too much (once we've moved hopefully not so much of an impact , but it's hard to imagine anything else now most of our daughters life we've been living and working in a tiny environment )
Am I naive for thinking I'll find who I am again before having a second ? Does anyone else feel like this ?