Broken after pregnancy losses

[JustStuck]

I am 42 with a 5 year old child and would love another child. I have had two miscarriages and two tfmr for a genetic condition. I had my last tmfr almost 8 week ago, I haven't seen my period since then, I had sex 6 weeks ago(husband used the withdrawal method), GP thought I might be pregnant, last Sunday I had positive pregnancy test, I have just done the test again and its negative. I knew I wasn't pregnant as the weeks count on the test showed 1 to 2 weeks, nevertheless my hopes have been dashed again. I am not pregnant. When does this all end? I have been trying for the last 3 years. .I feel like I'm just chasing my tail, going round in circles while my fertility declining..what can I say to myself to help me get through this painful time ? How do I stop it from consuming my life? Please help.

I’m sorry for your losses. It ends either when you want it to end or when you hit menopause. What’s the push behind continuing trying, is it a biological urge, feeling the need to provide a sibling? I’ve had losses and have one child and may never have another given the issues in conceiving a first and continuing women’s issues since . I think I’ve brought myself to peace with it now. If there’s any advice I can give you, even just to lend a friendly ear I will.

Thankyou LouiseTrees for replying, I am so sorry for your loss. I come from a large family with lots of siblings who themselves have gone onto have more children. I would love to be a mum again and I feel gutted for my daughter who doesn't have a sibling. But the biggest lost is for myself. How did you manage to bring peace to yourself?