4th child?

[JodEye84]

Hi all. Thanks in advance for taking the time to read this and for your responses. 😊

I am a 34 year old (nearly 35) Mum of 3; a lad turning 15 in Feb and 2 girls aged 11 and 3 respectively. I have this (insane?) urge to have one more. All of my kids have different dads (long stories, but it is what it is) and had I met my youngest's Dad when I was younger myself, I'd not have hesitated in having more.

My lesser worries first. I'm worried about being a thousand years old before getting any sleep again, plus that my body will not recover a fourth time (yep, a bit shallow, granted, but there we have it) and I'll be needing another C-section.

Will I give birth to a tiny Satan? Where will we keep all their 'stuff'? Will we still manage to do little caravan holidays as a family? Ugh.

More frightening (for me) is that I am still on medication (20 mg Citalopram and also Propronalol for severe anxiety) after suffering with PND (postnatal depression) after the births of my second and third children, the most recent bout being the worst by a mile. I am bricking it that this will happen again. Will I have to come off of the medication? Can one breastfeed whilst on this type of medication? Is it a definite that I'll get PND (postnatal depression) again? Conflicting views all over the place and everywhere!

I'm also worried about the impact on my toddler. The PND (postnatal depression) made our relationship difficult and although we're back on track, as it were, I'm worried she'll resent me in some way? That probably sounds mad.

The logistics terrify me. How do you all make it work?

I guess I'm asking for your experiences relating to any aspect of this post, and hoping that you won't judge me too harshly. All and any help gratefully received.

Thanks again.

I think you've posted in the wrong place OP try and get this moved

If I was to be honest, I would never do this to myself.
You don’t know how hard your pregnancy could be.
You don’t know what your fourth child will be like and if they will need additional support.
You don’t know what the impact will be on your mental health.

You could very feasibly become a grandmother within the next ten years. You probably will become a grandmother within the next twenty years, if you like children that will be another chance to hold a little hand.

Fourth c section will carry with it significant health risks.
I don’t think it would be fair on your teenagers to have another newborn in the house, your eldest will be coming up to exam time I assume.

I just can’t see any reason why you would put yourself through this.
I know broodniess isn’t logical, but if I were you I’d try to focus on the children I had, and something else for me that I couldn’t do with a fourth child on the way, whether work related/hobby.

Sorry if that’s not what you wanted to hear, but it was just my gut reaction to your post.

What does the potential dad (to-be) say?

I have no idea why it posted there. I had clicked on a talk for 'larger families'. Sigh.

Thank you for your responses. I'll try to move it, or repost.

Bless XX