Don’t know whether to try again after another loss

[Primrose16]

I have a beautiful daughter who is 13 months, I know I’m incredibly lucky to have her as some aren’t so lucky. But I always visualised a family of at least 2 children. Prior to having my little girl I had a mc in Dec 2014 and a mmc in Aug 2015. I am currently miscarrying again and I am truly heartbroken. I hadn’t planned this recent pregnancy and however hard it was going be we could do it. I told my husband that if it didn’t work out that that was it as I couldn’t cope with another loss. But the thought of not having another baby breaks my heart. I just want to be pregnant again.
I don’t know what to do.

I'm not sure if I'm much help I have a 5 year old and a 2 year old then I had 4 miscarriages then 4 months ago I just gave birth to another beautiful little boy .. I know it's hard losing so many but think positive .. is there a rush to have another right now maybe if you just relaxed .. you might just be putting to much pressure on yourself

I hope it works out well for you
And sorry for your loses

@Primrose16.. just found your msg from Jan 18 and wondered if you're ok? x

@3babyxx sorry I have just noticed your reply. I think I was just getting myself all stressed about the prospect of trying again, and miscarrying and I suppose it keep happening - fearing the worse. And panicking that maybe I shouldn’t waste anytime. As it happens @BooseysMom I went on to get pregnant again and miscarried again March 2018. A referral was made to the recurrent miscarriage service (which I’m still waiting on 🙄) made me even more stressed that my daughter was either a fluke - or I couldn’t have a certain sex etc etc. But I got pregnant the month after my 4th loss and it stuck. I had a terrible pregnancy of worry but I had a son on the 31st December. I delivered him unplanned at home - my hubby as midwife and 2 year old daughter as student midwife
My husband is going for the snip as soon as we can arrange, we both have had enough of the stress of baby making and are sticking at our 2. We are so lucky even though our journey wasn’t as smooth as some- I know others have it worse
Thank you for asking

@Primrose16... Wow what a story! Sorry to hear about your mc's. That's alot to go thru. You did well to keep going! I had 2 before DS and didn't even realise I was preg for 12 wks as I continued having bleeding but later each month so put it down to Peri as I was 40! Congratulations on the birth of your DS... well deserved!