Having a baby changed my future family plans

[Csd17]

Now I am at the stage where i no longer want to put my baby back inside my uterus, I am enjoying the magic of having a newborn. That said, this has been the hardest few weeks of my life and I know I never want to go through this again. How many new mums felt this way and didn't go on to procreate further?

I thought I wanted 4 children, but frankly, I cant now imagine a worse punishment, and my newborn son is a wonderful baby.. there's no real reason for me to feel this way. I think the reality of motherhood was just.. entirely different to what I expected. I have even greater respect for mums of more than one now.

I can also 100% relate to this. Our DD is 10 months old and is an angel most of the time...now. But I really have not enjoyed the baby stage and am only really starting to now.

I had a relatively easy pregnancy and short labour but I still hated it. And when DD was a newborn I spent many nights wondering if I’d made a mistake having a baby at all. I’ve only really admitted that to DH before now.

We’d completely decided we would not be having another until this week when I went back to work. I realised I was actually enjoying it and it hit me how quickly she’s growing up and I wish I’d enjoyed things a bit more. So now we’re talking about maybe having another in a year or so. Saying that, I’m 38 so who knows whether it would even happen or not!