Guilt...does it go?

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I only ever wanted one child. He is now 8, and has asked for the first time about siblings? I told him I only ever wanted him (and I'm too old anyway). I have suffered from depression/anxiety all my life and I know I could not have coped with 2 kids (I work full time as well). But I feel so guilty...he is a kind, well adjusted boy, with friends he plays with after school....but I just have a sense of guilt that I have denied him something...

I also have a big problem of worrying about him dying and ending up all alone

Siblings does not guarantee he wouldn't end up alone. I have 5 siblings. I only speak to one of them. I know plenty of people who never speak to their siblings.

If you are happy in your decision, there is no need for guilt.

Despite suffering from long term depression and anxiety you are raising a "kind, well adjusted boy" who has friends. What do you have to feel guilty about? Sounds like you're doing a wonderful job.

Odds are you won't die until he's well into adulthood so don't waste today worrying about something you have no control over (I need to follow my own advice!). He'll be fine without siblings - just enjoy your life together

it never occurs to me to feel guilty about having one child!
What is there to feel guilty about?